Desert Diva

He imagined the pain of the world to be like some formless parasitic being seeking out the warmth of human souls wherein to incubate and he thought he knew what made one liable to its visitations. What he had not known was that it was mindless and so had no way to know the limits of those souls and what he feared was that there might be no limits.

Cormac McCarthy – All the Pretty Horses

It’s been quite some time since I’ve posted. I wish I could say that it’s been a blissful, relaxing summer existance.  However, it’s been quite the opposite.  It seems that the summer has been a series of “little mishaps.  JR’s RV had a major problem when he attempted to dump sewage just north of Salt Lake City.  I was all settled in my RV and get a call on my cell phone.  Imagine sewage running along the floor (and into the carpet) on the inside of an RV while it’s pouring rain outside.  Not a pretty picture…

Forward to Florence, Oregon where my dog Cali is frantically licking her backside.  When I examine the area there’s a huge ugly abcess.  A trip to the vet and $120.00 later it turns out to be an infected anal gland.  Luckily, Cali won’t need further treatment or surgery.

On to Eugene, Oregon I’m coughing and wheezing with a runny nose.  A trip to Urgent Care and I find I’m one of the masses of Eugene natives who are terribly allergic this time year.  (Did you know that Eugene, Oregon has the largest collection of allergens in the United States?)  Claritin tabs, Abuterol and Flovent inhalers, and another big ticket.  Apparently there’s a price to pay for access to wonderful bike paths and rivers to kayak upon…

As for JR, I left him last night at his former in-laws.  I told him I was going shopping, but took my RV and left.  There were no words left to say and I was tired of being unhappy.  This morning I’m at a Starbucks in Eugene having a latte and feel – well relieved.

The deal breaker was Cali – he hates her.  I know that she’s part terrier and often hyper, but she actually liked JR.  However, he wouldn’t give her the time of day.  He told me to keep her in my RV, and when I was going to use his car to  into Eugene yesterday told me to leave my RV keys in case she started barking so he could move the RV further away.  He had a dog, but gave her away when he started full-time RVing.  He told me if he couldn’t have given her away he would have had her put to sleep.  I wonder how that translates to other individuals he comes into contact with in his life?

I’ve now had two people that know him well that have told me that he’s self-centered, does what HE wants, and expects you to go along no matter what.  I’m independent, smart, and well-educated.  Therefore, I’m just not going to put up with anyone who is selfish and self-centered.

Years ago (when I was a sweet young thing) I had a boyfriend that actually told me he loved his car more than me.  Needless to say he quickly became my ex-boyfriend.   JR actually pulled a stunt where he told me he loved me, then two days later he said he didn’t know if he loved me because of Cali.  Love like that I don’t need – or want…

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