Dec05
Forgiveness…
We’re at that time of the year where all that “has been” is ending and we look toward the light of a new year (and decade). The greatest challenge in my life is to forgive – I’m not good at it at all. Holding onto failed expectations, grudges, and sadness is not healthy for one’s well-being.
It’s so difficult to “turn the other cheek” and instead enter into a storm of self-righteous where we seem to want to be vindicated from those that oppress us. Hate comes to mind… However, when one is attacked (on any level) we feel the need to “get even.” Our “ego” wants the score to be settled.
Recently, I’ve been listening to a recording where the “ego” is defined as an acronym for “Edging God Out.” Needless to say, I have a lot to learn…
I’m not very good at it either, but it makes me feel better knowing I’m not alone at this. I wish I could be easier going: I think sometimes I just have really high expectations of those in my life; when they don’t meet them, I cut them out/off. Self protection? I’m trying to embrace this part of me more and see it as an asset.
I’m going to think more about your acronym for Ego: it’s an interesting one!
Take good care,
L
One of the gifts my mother gave me was the ability to “forgive” and move on. It’s not always easy, but I find that, as a basically lazy person, it takes less energy for me to just let go than to hang on to feelings of anger or resentment or hurt. Sometimes it takes longer than others. And sometimes I probably just push the issue to a far off place to avoid it. Whatever, it works for me. Although I still don’t think I’m ready to “friend” my ex-husband on Facebook – he sent me a request yesterday.