Thursday * March 4th 2021

A Message from the Heart…

Rio Grande Gold

Rio Grande – Truth or Consequences, NM

It seems that I’ve always limited myself by what I feel that I SHOULD do, as opposed to what is my “heart’s desire.”

After a summer of travel, I’m home again in Las Cruces, New Mexico.  I’m fortunate.  I have a very comfortable town-home, that I’m actually going to pay off the mortgage next Monday after taking out the lump sum from my Indiana Teacher Retirement.  (I’m still vested in the retirement system, and will get a “smallish” pension once I turn sixty-five.  However, for now I’m comfortable with my New Mexico Teacher Retirement and early Social Security.)

I’m not rich, but I’m not poor – I planned well…

However, I digress…

I think if I had a “significant other” to share the joys of the upcoming holidays with, I would be totally content.  However, being alone and single somewhat “pales in comparison” to a homespun holiday experience.  I’m divorced (for about 100 years), my parents are gone, my siblings are spread out all over the United States, and even though I have my beloved Cali I yearn for some sort of “holiday connection.”

Am I a “Little Crazy?”

Just in case you didn’t know, I have an anxiety disorder.  My spin is that I was born with a genetic condition that was hard for me to accept.  Actually, I don’t think I’m the least bit crazy and have been through a tremendous amount of SH*T in my life related to “the disorder.”   (although a little different).  Today I met with my psychiatric nurse practitioner for a bi-yearly med check.  We chat, she fills my meds, and she advises me on what I should do.  (Prozac/Xanax)  She says she’s proud of me, that I take “risks”, and live my life richly.  She told me to…

Get Out of Dodge!

I know I’m happiest when I’m traveling.  Sometimes it’s stressful, but in some strange cosmic manner God/Spirit/Universe always takes care of me.  Hokey as it may sound, I firmly believe it.  Sometimes I meet who are caustic and rude.  Other times, I meet kindred souls who I “almost” believe God has sent to me.  I realize that I “need” the caustic and rude people to grow and trust myself.  It’s not always fun.

I’m on a journey – aren’t we all?

 

8 Comments »Journal, Pondering Life, Spirituality, Travel, WordPress

8 Replies to Desert Diva to “A Message from the Heart…”

  1. Joseph Baker says:

    i enjoyed reading today’s blog,sounds a lot like me. Nice to know i’m not the only one thinking that way,lol.

  2. Bob UNITED STATES says:

    Like your story and can relate as well. Take care!

  3. Liked your story and we find it true that when we are traveling everything just seems to fall in place.
    As far as the Rude and Caustic people around you they are actually jealous of you and they need to grow up.
    Be Safe and Enjoy!

    It’s about time.
    Richard Rousseau´s last blog post ..Chores, Research And Solar Panels Ready.

  4. So true of so many people.
    I am now married for the 3rd time! 26 years now.
    Finally found my soul mate.
    And we both find peace when we are on the road.
    Like you not rich but we do get by and make everyday count.
    Keep up with what you are doing and enjoy life, forget about the bad people too many out there.
    George & Suzie´s last blog post ..Old Town Albuquerque and a bright sunny day.

  5. Merikay UNITED STATES says:

    It is good you planned well. Not having to worry about money on a daily basis frees yp your mind for other things.

    We have a very small family. Last year we were not together for the holidays, but it was OK. I think we all have a much bigger and nicer image of family and holidays than reality could provide.

    UnLike the feel good TV families of the 60’s. Our life just goes on.

  6. Paul Dahl says:

    I understand the issue of holidays. Being empty nesters and our three kids and families spread all over the states makes the holidays seem so empty. But we’re happy to be able to enjoy our RV life and travels so it makes up for it, and we often spend holidays with friends we’ve made on the road.

    Congrats on paying off the house. Yes, you did plan well for your future! :c)

  7. Dawn in MI UNITED STATES says:

    I’m visiting your blog from a site called “solo Women RVers” because I hope someday to be doing RVing myself. At the moment I like to camp in the summer with my dog Katie. I’ m married and my husband has no interest in camping..so if I ever do get to go RVing it will be after some sort of upheaval in my life. Anyway, I hope you have a good holiday however you choose to do it. When I was single and living in a remote town in the Upper Peninsula I volunteered with Little Brothers, Friends of the Elderly on all the holidays. That helped a lot. Now days I’d be grateful to get a day or two by myself, but I know the grass is always greener! 🙂

  8. Dawn in MI UNITED STATES says:

    Wait a minute…I just went to read your “about” …you have a Lazydaze? That’s one of the RVs I’ve been researching. I like that they have lots of windows. How do you like it?
    Dawn in MI´s last blog post ..Thank you